"Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"
^Yep, thats me.
My mother hasn't been part of my life in a long, long time and the few times we do communicate its for Annabelle. I think I have seen her a total of 5 times since Annabelle was born and quite frankly I don't intend to change that any time. She has disappointed me plenty of times in my life and this never changes so why is it that every time I make an attempt to get in touch with her I expect something different? Because I'm insane!
Since I have been having all the hormone and ovulation issues I thought maybe I should give her a ring to see if maybe it could be a genetic thing. Her and I never talk let alone talk about personal stuff. I called her yesterday evening and she answered and I told her I have a question. I didn't tell her the whole truth but I told her that I got a physical and my hormone levels came back low and wanted to see if she ever had any issues that I may have inherited.
Well, guess what she told me? She told that she's out hanging out with her friends in Hoboken right now and she's too busy to talk but I should just get whatever I need to get fixed and call it a day. Helpful right? I would think that she would at least show some care to see if anything was wrong but no, of course not.
I don't even know why I was disappointed. I know how she is, I know she doesn't give a crap so why was I surprised? I really should learn my lesson that she's never going to gain the maternal gene. Ever!
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